I'm SOOO sleepy but I have to study for the Chinese test tomorrow. :(

We didn't have to do 100 Back!!!! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! Okay, so not SO yay, but a little YAY!! We did ten 100's today and a few 25's. We started off our practice/tryout day with a longggg talk that took about 30 minutes, so we only had in hour in the pool. We did dives today too. Well, it was more like the people who could dive perfectly/good/well did, while the ones who couldn't do it well or at all stood off to the side. I can dive, but I can't push myself really far and slip into the water like you're supposed to. That's something I really need to work on. The weird thing is that it's only on diving blocks that I can't go far and do it well. I can do it fine from the side of the pool...Well, anyway, I just need to work on it.

I bumped my hand and head on Wednesday while doing backstroke, and well, my hand hurt and is still sore, but I JUST realized that my heed is also sore! I only found out by scratching the back of my head near the area of impact. Haha.

I dropped my phone...I was rushing to the car because I was semi-late for swim practice/tryouts and it fell out of my hoodie pocket and onto the road. It now had multiple scratches and has lost it's AWESOMENESS...*cries*

Today definitely does not feel like a Friday. Maybe it's because I have swimming again today...I think that's it.

Well, I still have all my Chinese homework to complete and I have a Chinese test tomorrow. Yippee....Damn. I don't think I'll be able to finish it...Heck, I don't even want to finish it...so I don't know. I'm tired and really need to catch up on my sleep, so I might not do all of it and turn it in next week or two weeks from tomorrow because we have a two-week break for President's Day and a Winter Break week. :) But I wonder why we don't get a week off form Chinese New Years...Oh well! I get my annual $1 from my Chinese teacher. XD

So, I'm about to go change and get ready for swimming. It's 100 Back trials today!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! The only two things I'm afraid of is hitting the lane line which I usually do because I tend to veer off course (XD) and messing up on my flip-turns because sometimes I turn too late and sometimes I turn too early. I mean, I'm on my back, so I can't really gauge the time, and even though we have our flag count, sometimes it changes for me. Even the slightest change can do so much damage....

I'm at the
bottom of the world
looking - up at creation
and the only explanation I can find
is the hate that I've found ever since since I've been around
The hate put me at the bottom of the world

Swim trials today and though I made it 8 seconds in the time frame, I'm completely, totally unsatisfied with my time. 1:27. I could have gone so much faster. I was going slow at first to save my energy and I planned to speed up on the last 50, but my slowness persisted until the last 25. Damn. I'm fucking pissed and depressed. Now, I know I won't make it. I'm positive. Completely, utterly positive. 100% certain that I won't make it. Fuck myself.  I could have gone so much faster.  I feel like killing myself right now, though I think we all know I won't. But I really feel like it. I feel the strongest, freaking urge to just die. Yeah, yeah , I'm a stupid, dramatic, emo teen. Whatever.

I forgot to mention that I got a haircut on Saturday. It's not too different from my old hairstyle.

I had a freaking Physics test today and well, it was easy. I didn't even study as much as I usually do.

In English, we're reading A Raisin in the Sun and we have to act out a scene from the book. My group is going tomorrow and we're doing Act III. I'm Mr. Lindner. I don't have too many lines, but it's not too little(okay maybe it is) either so I guess it's fine.

Spanish quiz and Health Science test tomorrow...I'm starting to dislike Health Science. I'm getting tired of the same old people whom are the types of people i despise the most and the activities that we do are lessening in enjoyment and quantity.

Happy Chinese New Year my ass.